Think Positive

In light of this whole situation with *Tim, I have decided to not ‘let it go’ but kind of move on from this. The stress of waiting for a phone call that is not going to come my way, instead, her way. The places that were ours can not be labeled as such for many others have walked the same paths. The main stream of closure is the songs of today and yesterday. Also, the comfort of my mother and the stories of her younger years that are parallel to that of mine make me feel as though the decisions I make come from a part of my mind that does not necessarily come from my mother’s mistake but more from a mold that God has created. That same mold that my mother was made from. The amount of pain inside me from the tear on this relationship with *Tim is something I hope I never go through as many times as I have in the past year. My heart has been broken by the same man three times, this only shows me how easily I depend on him and fall back into the comfort of familiarity. I hope to keep his friendship because he is such an important part of my life, but I know there is something better out there for me. Someone who will not break my heart, or make me feel the pain I feel/have felt from my past relationship. This blog seems to be running with dry ink but I know there will be more…